Hello, I'm Allison. I enjoy figure skating and Justin Bieber and other various activities that most teenagers enjoy. But most of all, I like you.
I don’t even know who I am anymore. I want to live my life again. I can’t stand this constant pain anymore.
If I told you that going through this was hard, it would be an understatement. What’s even worse is going through it alone. The more I try to talk to people about it, the more I lose people in my life because they say I’m putting way too much of it on them. Every day is harder and every say feels closer to the end. I know it’s not great to say I feel suicidal, but I do. And what hurts the most is when friends get mad at me for feeling that way. I can’t control it. I can’t control myself. I need help. I don’t know how I’m going to be able to stand not seeing a physciatrist until March, but I guess it has to be done. Now, every day is a struggle to get to the next. I look forward to the day I can really get a hold of this..
artpop-the-booty said: Allison, hun, you're such a doll. And stay strong for me ok? ❤️
Awwww I love you. Can we be friends? Get my number from Brendan and text me omg you’re a sweetheart.
Every time, I feel like it’ll be different. Maybe this time I’ll be happy. Never. I don’t know why I do this to myself. What’s wrong with me? I’m coming to the true realization that I know the reason I’m always upset. It’s a harsh reality, but I know why now. As I see it happening before my eyes, I look into the past and reasons why I was sad. Now, I know why. Will I correct it? Maybe. Do I have the strength to do that right now? Not at all. One day I’ll be happy. I promised myself that. But for now, I’m just putting myself through it.
Anonymous said: Have you smiled today?
Fortunately, yes, I have.